The Beauty in........

brokenness is something that cannot be fully described with words. When we get to that point where we've hit bottom.Where we feel so cracked and dried up.Where we can't go any further because we have gotten so far from the One who created us, there is magnificent beauty in our pain and anguish. The One who created us and everything around is there.Reaching down from Heaven saying"Take My hand, let me guide you,love you, and dust you off ". It is truely a beautiful thing to feel. I was at my lowest. I didn't care what I did or how it effected anyone. I was hurt. I felt that God had taken so much from me. I was running so far from what I knew was right. I ran until there was nothing to run to.I was so tired of being in pain and wondering why all the time. I was tired of killing myself slowly each and everyday. I felt there was not much else to live for and then my eyes were opened. Someone close to me that I had abandoned walked back into my life. God spoke so loudly to me through him.He began to show me that He knew I was hurting and that all He wanted from me was to run TO Him not away.That in His arms was peace,love,wisdom,guidance,mercy and grace you can't begin to descirbe.Looking back now, I clearly see the beauty in my desperation and brokenness. I found that my first love was just wanting me to let Him love me.