Really?

You obviously have a reason, yet you don't have the guts to say anything. That's weak. Now, everything that came out of your mouth is a lie. At least I don't have to deal with that. I could understand if I did something wrong, but we both know that isn't the case. Grow up. Speak up. Say what you need to . Say something. Saying nothing and sweeping it under the rug isn't solving anything. In fact, it's making it worse. I'll be cool in a day or so, but for now I'm going to stay mad.

Pretty Heavy Song..............

"You say you always treat people like you like to be
I guess you love being hated for your sexuality
You love when people put words in your mouth
'Bout what you believe, make you sound like a freak

'Cause if you really believe what you say you believe
You wouldn't be so damn reckless with the words you speak
Wouldn't silently conceal when the liars speak
Denyin' all the dyin' of the remedy

Tell me, brother, what matters more to you?
Tell me, sister, what matters more to you?

If I can tell what's in your heart by what comes out of your mouth
Then it sure looks to me like being straight is all it's about
It looks like being hated for all the wrong things
Like chasin' the wind while the pendulum swings

'Cause we can talk and debate until we're blue in the face
About the language and tradition that he's comin' to save
Meanwhile we sit just like we don't give a shit
About 50,000 people who are dyin' today

Tell me, brother, what matters more to you?
Tell me, sister, what matters more to you? "

I have to say the honesty in this song is incredible. Here is guy who is so passionate about what he believes, that he has totally thrown caution to the wind! I wish I took my faith that seriously everyday!

This story really saddend me.....

I just read an article about a church here in Florida that put a trespassing warrant on one of its members and his wife. The guy posted a criticism of the church's pastor on his anonymous blog. I think we should be far less concerned with what people are blogging about us and far more concerned with sharing the gospel of Christ to a dying and hurting world. I think this world would be a better place if churches stopped trying to build $30 million childrens facilities and instead sent teams of willing servants to share the story of salvation and redemption to those who will not get hear it otherwise.

Some lyrics I'm toying with........

Are we lost, or simply indifferent
Have we lost hope, or just the will to fight


That's really all I have right now. I'm actually looking at the paper right now and fully intend on going somewhere with it. The first line is something that is really resonating inside of me right now. I don't think we are " lost ". I think we just don't care anymore. We want to see people come to know The Father, yet all we seem to be doing is whatever doesn't make us feel or look bad.

I want to be inspired

I want You to inspire me. I want to stop living in my selfish world of nothingness. I want to sing. I want to dance. I want Your glory fill me and be with me all of my days. Come to me now. Wrap Your arms around me and please don't ever let me go.

You are great. You are mighty. Im so very unworthy, yet you continually love me.
For that reason alone I am inspired. Inspired to live my life for no one but You.

Where I am headed

I really do not know. I am in a place where I don't really understand what is going on. It isn't an identity crisis or questioning of faith. I am just wondering what the next move is? God has shown me some great things recently and He is continually revealing Hiself to me. What is weird though is that I thought I knew where to go and what to do, but I was wrong. Maybe what's going on is that He is saying " ok, you think you have it all figured out? Watch this!" He hasn't thrown me a "curveball" what He is throwing my is the banned from baseball Screwball. I don't know what to do, but this is making me seek and rely on Him more, which can't be bad.

What I find amazing........

is that mornings where I've slept nine or more hours, I find it more difficult to wake up. This morning, after only sleeping for a solid five hours, I was up and completely ready in like 15 minutes( I showered at 1am). This is one of those mysteries in this life that I guess I'll never quite understand. If anyone out there has any thoughts on this please let me know.


Enjoy your Sunday-Eric