Ohh you know...

Since sunday night I've been wrestling with something,"do we read our bibles to further know God in an intimate way,or are we reading it so that we have the knowledge of what it says"?That question hit me like a freaking boulder! I have not picked mine up since sunday night,and have been wondering,and talking to God about whether or not I'm really wanting to experience Him everytime I open up my bible.The thought that i could be in some weird sub-conscious way only wanting a knowledge of the bible rather than hearing the voice of God freaks me out.As of now I'm talking to God asking Him to just love me and reveal Himself to me,and really just seeking what He wants for me. Im trying to let go of some of my own fears and insecurities,and just let Him take complete control,because Im totally blessed beyond belief to be in the position Im in right now.I want Him to be glorified and me just be used solely for that purpose. Thats all ive got today. Much Love-Eric